Shades of Grey

i was writing a letter for you
trying to let you know
what's inside my head

i've been thinking (again)
i wanted to know you
little things about you

somehow, it made me feel close to you
somehow, it made me feel i am part of your life
even if i am not really into it

it made me feel closer to you

for a second there
i felt that something inside me
told me to stop

i paused for a while, read my letter

i am not feeling it
questions came pouring inside my head

i don't like this, i don't want this
[i was surprised as i think of it, i am not sure what is happening to me]