My Bad Habit is Back

Yesterday, I watched a movie with my nieces and nephew. And before going home, we dropped by the supermarket to grab some chips and snacks. I bought some chips, my comfort foods; and my nieces and nephew also grabbed a pack of their favorite chips. I got a sour cream and onion pringles, a cheddar cheese pik-nik, cheddar cheese potato chips and a party pack of choco soaked snack (Sponge Crunch). As soon as we are home, I went upstairs and stayed in my room until it was time to sleep. While in my room, I opened the pack of cheddar cheese potato chips; muching away as I was updating my blog. After a few hours, I fell asleep. A couple of hours later, I was munching the sour cream onion pringles, while I was trying to keep my eyes open, staring at my laptop. I am aware that I should stop munching and that I should turn off my laptop and sleep. But something keeps me from doing so. I want to stay awake. I don't want to sleep. I just want to think.

My bad habit is back. I don't want to sleep. I just want to lay on my bed, listen to music and think of things; lots of things. And I eat to keep me awake all night. It has been a long time since the last time I was like this. Looking back, it happened when I was in a very difficult situation. I don't know what is happening to me now. But I am aware that something is not right. I am praying though, for guidance and strength; for God to wash away all these uncertainties. And hopefully, all these salt, calories and fats I am acquiring from eating all these comfort foods would washed away too. By the way, I just finished the sour cream onion pringles and the choco soaked snack, while I was writing this post.