Turn Back Time

I wrote the following thoughts this afternoon, while having a moment inside my room. I was planning to call my friends and invite them out to the mall but I was too indolent to pick up the phone and call. And so, I decided to face the "thing" that has been making me feel "unwell" for the a long time now.

Regret. I think this is the first time I had one in my life. I try not to feel it. But no matter how hard I try to keep myself busy and occupied; still it haunts me.

If I could turn back time
I would like to go back
On the day we spend time together

I would have hold you close
I would have kissed you tight
I would have hugged you although the night

If I could go back in time
I would love to be with you once again
On the day you reached for me and embraced me

I would have hold your hand so tight
I would have told you how much I truly miss you
I would have told you that I still love you

If I could relive that moment
I would have hugged you more
I would have hold you more
I would have kissed you more
And let you know how much I miss you
And make you feel how much I truly love you

I am missing you so much
I regret the day I let you go
I am sorry for pretending not to care

Sorry for not reaching out to your hand
Sorry for not holding you close;
For not hugging you tight

I am sorry for not letting you know
How much I miss you
Sorry for pretending
That I am not in love with you

I love you
I always have
And I always will

No one, nothing can change the way I feel
You have always been
And forever will be
My one and only