When Emotions Attack

I'm feeling a little emotional today. I feel that there's something inside my chest that makes me feel this way. I feel like crying; listening to old, sentimental songs; reminiscing moments of the past; and all these made me wear a serious mask the whole day.

I spent the whole morning sleeping. If its not for the phone call from our security guard at the office, I would have probably stayed in bed the whole day. I decided to check my blogs and work on new blog assignments. While blogging, I was watching tv. And there I go again, I can control my tears from falling as I was listening to Alvin Patrimonio's daughter. She was asked to give a message to her Dad. I changed the channel; and I also got teary eyed seeing Richie the Horsie. He is a comedian, but his life story is serious stuff that can really touch your heart.

I slept (again) the rest of the afternoon. Thinking..reminiscing moments of the past... I know I should stop... I must stop. Reliving those memories would only give me false hopes. And would eventually bring more pain in my heart. But sometimes I can't help myself. Amidst all these sad and heartbreaking emotions, there's a grain of happiness I feel whenever I relive each moment. Happy because I can still feel; I am not (yet) numb; and its the only time I can be with you.